Change. It just comes down to that, I need a change.
Finding Inspiration Elsewhere
For those of you that know me, you probably know that I’ve been feeling like I need to get out of the UK for a while now. Walking down the same streets everyday, seeing the same sights, taking the same journey to work every single day… it gets tiring. It feels so ordinary, and so uninspiring, like I am stuck in a hamster wheel – endlessly moving, but never really going anywhere.
London is one of the greatest cities in the world and it has the opportunity to provide endless possibilities, but when you have lived somewhere all your life, it starts not to feel that way anymore. I am unable to give London all that I can when I know that I can give so much more. I believe that your surroundings should lift you up and should inspire you, London just doesn’t do that for me, and it hasn’t for a long time now.
Don’t get me wrong, I know how lucky I am to have what I have. I am so grateful for everything and I do count my blessings daily. Getting to live and grow up in this capital has helped me in my confidence, and has meant that I have met some really great people that I will have with me for life. But there comes a point, where I need to explore what else there is out there. And I’m not just talking about a 2 week holiday, I mean really discovering and recognising a new and different way of life.
Getting outside of my comfort zone
I don’t have the naive belief that this move will be the end to all of my problems and feelings of life anxiety. I realise that being there outside of my comfort zone is going to be difficult. But isn’t that when you grow and learn the most – When you’re pushed outside of what is comfortable?
This decision to move was both easy, and also one of the hardest things I’ve had to do. Deciding to leave my friends and my family was not a simple decision to make. I’m certain there will be times when I feel so alone, unable to talk to any of my close friends due to the time difference. It’s going to be a challenge. But there is this deep feeling in the pit of my gut telling me that I have to do this. I can’t be trapped inside this hamster wheel anymore.
Living and working in another country has always been one of my dreams. I can’t believe that it’s finally happening! It’s one of those things that I’ve always thought about, it’s always been in the back of my mind… I just never thought it would happen so soon.
I’m going to be honest, I don’t have a plan when I go out there. I don’t have a job, nor do I really know what I want to do. I just have faith that this is what I need to do in order to become the person I’m going to be. Life is too short to spend it living in one place.