So I’ve been told that it’s now the beginning of winter, but it’s hard to believe when I still don’t own a coat. The days are certainly getting cooler, but thankfully it’s nothing like the winter my soul has been acclimatised to.
As the season shifts into winter, I am realising more and more how much moving from London to Sydney has changed me. Experiencing a winter in June is just one facet of how my internal compass has been thrown into obscurity. I literally feel like I am in The Upside Down.
I’ve been learning to let go of some ideas about life that I had back in London. Ideas of convention; of where I ‘should’ be in my career right now, of what a ‘normal’ life is meant to look like. And I’m kind of loving it. It feels liberating like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders.
Strangely enough, not knowing what the future might hold has given me a bigger sense of clarity and peace than when I was in a full-time job.
Not knowing all the answers doesn’t scare me as much as it used to. I no longer need to have a tight grasp of my next step, instead, I’m letting life take its course whilst being open to opportunities and listening to my own needs.
Although I had always wanted to move to another country and work, I didn’t think it would happen so quickly. I always thought that in London I would work my way up a few levels before taking that career path with me and continuing it in a different country. But truth be told, I wasn’t listening to what I truly needed, and was ignoring how unhappy I was feeling. However, I tried to stick with it because I thought I had to go in accordance with the traditional way it’s always done.
For months now I have been battling with myself internally. Wasting hours of my time looking fruitlessly at jobs that I don’t want, just because I think applying for them is the right thing to do. Though at times I still feel a little lost, I’m starting to feel okay with not needing to know all the answers. Times are changing and we are adapting through the ebbs and flows with it.
It has taken me a while to get here and I’ll be the first to admit that I have so much further to go, but I can say without a doubt that I have grown so much from this experience. This phase right now is a defining moment in my 20’s and one that will stay with me forever.
If a winter can start in June, then I’m ready to redefine what a normal life means to me.
Thank you so much for reading. x
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